Today, I was sad.
Sad that my children are growing up oh-so-fast.
Sad that I so often put priority on the to-do list, not on relationships.
Laundry comes before reading
Dishes are more important than playing a game
Vacuuming and dusting and cleaning toilets and let's be real, checking Facebook,
come before riding bikes and catching lizards.
That's not what I would say, of course. If you asked me, I would tell you that building relationships with my family is the priority. But that's not what my life looks like, too much of the time.
And it really stinks because I already know that someday, I am going to look back, and I am going to really really wish that I had picked my boys more and accomplishing less.
So today, I put down the broom, picked up the baby, and headed outside. We jumped on the trampoline and we were happy. If you haven't jumped on a trampoline recently, I highly recommend it. I felt so free and youthful and like I was really living my best life, you know?
And my boys were so excited that I was playing with them. After thirty minutes, they headed for naps, and I returned to my work but it felt different. I think the subliminal resentment, theirs and mine, had receded.
The lesson is so simple, but I must learn it over and over and over again.